Just Off Center

It's been less than a week since I began this rant, and I've been very happy with the thoughts I put down, not that I've had even a single reader to date. But that's not the point is it? But since I started this I've been wrestling with the idea of how to tell Nina that I'm blogging. Sounds easy, right? You either tell her or you don't. Well if you've read any of my posts you know that I have to put more thought into it than that.

First, how could I possibly keep it a secret? It's public. In the end she'll find some evidence of it somewhere and it'll be known. And then it'll seem like I was hiding it. This never goes over well. So I had to tell her. But when and how? Do I just say, "Hon, I started an online diary today"? I don't think so.

Why not? Well, Nina has a great deal of influence over most of what I do. And I want this blog to have some purity in it, without any fear of upsetting my wife, family or friends. And if she knows it's there, then she'll read it. And if she reads it then I'll know she's reading it. And if I know she's reading it I may alter my content to a more censored version to avoid any arguments. And I fucking hate arguing with her.

Well in the end, I told her what I was doing as I was writing my post at my home office on loss of faith. She passed by the office and saw me typing away. She asked, I answered. Arms were crossed, terse questions were asked, and the room PSI rose. But in the end I think she understood that this wasn't any attempt to do anything vile, but just get my thoughts recorded. This has got to me my most boring post ever.

So if anyone out there is reading this, have faith. I will continue to write what I think as I think it and if that ever changes I'll let you know. Thank you for your kind non-attention